Feb 3, 2024

A Writers View on Depression & Anxiety

Day 1: Writerholic

Hi. I'm Rhys Jack Parsons and I'm a writer.

You say: Hi Rhys!

I've tried to hide that fact from myself in the past, encouraging myself to find a normal stable career to provide for my family.

Fuck that.

The normal stable career bit. Not the provide for the family thing. I have a one year old and she's as cute as a button. This is not for you, unfortunately, dear reader. This is for her.

I find it impossible to explain to others what it feels like to be going through this. And I think it's impossible to.

So I'll show you.

I'm a writer, we've established that. It is how i organise my thoughts and contextualise them in my mind. If I don't write for long enough the world becomes strange to me.

So I'm addicted. However, unlike an alcoholic, this process of writing down whatever is in my brain, allows the thoughts to subside.

I spent 10 years researching and writing a screenplay about an explorer who leaves his family and is torn apart by the antartic winter. I thought it was a cool story. I found out later the real reason I wrote it was to convince myself that I don't need to earn love.

Yeah, it's going to be this kind of blog.

What I mean to say is that, I like writing. In recent years I've allowed myself to acklowledge that I'm pretty good at it too.

So instead of writing on LinkedIn or wherever and trying to appease the masses, I'm going back old school.

Come if you like, don't if you don't.

I'll leave you with a quote from Benjamin Button by F. Scott Fitzgerald. Though, it helps to imagine Brad Pitt saying this to you.

"For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again"